There are a lot of videos on YouTube about dealing with grief and I came upon one that was just about a minute and a half long, called “Everyone Seems to Be Getting Over It But Me.”
The man who does all of these videos on the Centre for the Grief Journey, spoke on this subject. He said that other family members have gone back to normal, back to their lives which are busy with jobs and spouse and children, etc.
But the bereaved spouse has no normal life to go back to. Our world is totally changed by the loss. Living alone. Grieving. Missing the one we love.
I can’t tell you how I felt, watching this short video. I had just been complaining to God about how alone I felt. I was thinking that no one understood why I am still feeling such deep sadness. And maybe there is something wrong with me. The irony is, I felt less alone after seeing this. I realized that there are many others just like me, struggling to move on. Feeling what I am feeling. It helps a little to know that.
I am grieving. My life has changed drastically. And I cannot change it back. I am almost 70 years old and for the first time in my entire life, I live alone. And I have to accept the fact that I will probably always live alone. Until I join my husband someday.
I found some songs on YouTube about grief. One man is singing to his wife to “save a place for me.” So I sing it to my husband, too.
Save a place for me, hon.
Catholic Prayer Life 
I CAN NOT IMAGIN WHAT IT MUST BE TO LIVE ALONE. I THINK I HAVE TOLD YOU BEFORE THAT I HAVE LIVED 86 YEARS AND NEVER ALONE, ALWAYS WITH FAMILY AND THEN WITH MY HUSBAND FOR 65 YEARS, BUT ALWAYS WITH THE LORD. I HOPE THAT WILL CONTINUE AND HE WILL FILL THE VOID. PEACE BC
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