Feelings of guilt is a normal grief emotion. Or so I have heard. And read.
I ask myself over and over, did I make the right decisions for him and his care? Should I have insisted on slowing down with all the tests he had? Should I have insisted on bringing him home for awhile?
I have to struggle with these thoughts and feelings. And I also need to be careful that I am not judging myself too hard. I am grieving. Grief can cause all kinds of responses. Guilt seems to go right along with the grief. Hand in hand.
I want Rich to be here with me. That is what I want.
Next month we would have celebrated 44 years of marriage. I plan on still celebrating it. I will buy some roses and bring them to the cemetery. As far as I am concerned, we are still married. That is just how I feel.
We Catholics do believe in the communion of saints. What a blessing that teaching is!
I bought a little wooden sign. It is in the shape of a heart. It goes on the shelf of that photo I wrote about last week. And the quote on it is –
“Those we love don’t go away, they walk beside us every day.” (Alex MacLean)
Love overrules grief and guilt for sure. Love with a capital L.
Catholic Prayer Life 
I sure hear some hope in a lot of your comments. God is good.
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I think my fingers got carried away. That is why I hate using my cell phone for writing! Glad yo are finding peaceful avenues to aid the grieving!! I can surely relate!
Blessings,
Pat
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