The Storms of Life

I had no idea it had been so long since my last blog post. I have been busy, sure, but not that busy.
So I started looking back at all that had happened since my last post and I realized a lot had happened. A hurricane for one thing!! How could I forget that?!?
My family and I were fortunate that the storm stayed out in the gulf when it got near us and we just had the effects of a tropical storm. I never even lost power.
But still, we had to prepare because you never know. My son came over and cleared off the patio for me so there wouldn’t be anything flying around. I got some groceries, water, batteries and gas for the car. I made sure my cell phone was charged. I filled the ice trays and turned the refrigerator to coldest in preparation for the inevitably of losing power.
And prayed.
I was fortunate. I never lost power. Not too much wind in my area. Just a lot of rain. While I was relieved, I felt guilty because of those who lived farther north from me and got hit hard.
The path of hurricanes are often accurately predicted by meteorologists, but sometimes there can be a sudden change in direction. My husband and I had been surprised by that more than once. I will never forget the time we were suddenly evacuated from the mobile home park where we lived because a hurricane changed direction and headed our way.
So it is like that scouting motto – Always be prepared. Changes may happen suddenly. A premature birth. A blizzard.
A loved one can get sick.
While I don’t think I was emotionally prepared for losing my husband, I never missed an opportunity to tell him how much I loved him. I know he knew that.
I still love him. And I still tell him. And I talk to him all day, hoping my neighbors don’t think I am losing my mind because they think I am talking to myself. I visit him at the cemetery which I know he would not like. He always told me I would need to get on with my life without him.

Maybe, eventually, I will get on with my life. But I will always miss him. I will always talk to him, (out loud, when no one’s around). I will always visit him.

And I will always, always, love him. Forever and 2 days. In case forever isn’t long enough.

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