I am missing my mother.
I used to call her every Monday. So every Monday my phone reminds me to call her. And I miss her more. I could remove that reminder from my phone, but then I feel like I am removing her from my life. So for now I leave it there.
The support group did not work out too well. It was less about support and more about education. I do not want a class. I want support. So I am looking for another group.
In the meantime I found some support on YouTube. Would you believe it? There’s advice from therapists on various subjects and beautiful songs that really hit home. I watch it every night. I cry and I pray and I even laugh sometimes. And I find some comfort.
My mother had a beautiful smile and a beautiful voice. I remember when I was a little girl and we had a Christmas pageant at our church. Mom played Mary and she sang Away in A Manger. Her voice was so soft but to me, she sounded like an angel.
Now she’s with the angels. And looking upon the face of God.
Put in a good word for me, Mom.
I love you.