Tag: family

Nighttime is the hardest. I am not sleeping well. I don’t have any distractions. Every night I toss and turn. And think of Rich. And miss him. And cry. Everything I do reminds me of his absence. Visiting my children. Going places where we went together. Cooking dinner. Had a BBQ today with my children… Read More ›

Close to My Heart

My husband and I had made pre-arrangements for our final resting place many years ago. We knew that it was a good thing to do to help each other and our children in the future. We had decided we would be cremated and had chosen a niche at the cemetery. We also set up a… Read More ›

Coping in the Present

I am trying to find ways to cope with my grief. I will attend a support group once a new session starts. Hopefully in a couple of weeks. I will start cleaning out my husband’s dresser drawers and closets when all my sons are in town. So I do have plans, but nothing now. I… Read More ›

Surviving

I miss him. I miss him everyday and every night. I still cry myself to sleep. Days seem lonely. Even when I am with others, I still feel lonely. Because no one knows how I feel. And I hesitate to share. I have always been good at covering up my real feelings. Some of it… Read More ›

With the Angels

I am missing my mother. I used to call her every Monday. So every Monday my phone reminds me to call her. And I miss her more. I could remove that reminder from my phone, but then I feel like I am removing her from my life. So for now I leave it there. The… Read More ›

Support

I attended a Bereavement Support group today. I was relieved that only 3 other people attended. (I handle small groups better. It’s the introvert in me.) It helped to talk about my mother’s death to strangers. I talked about the guilt feelings I had about not being there and about the last time I talked… Read More ›

Grief

I miss my mom. I cry every day. It gets a little easier, but I don’t know if I want it to be easier. I am able to listen to some of her voicemails on my phone over the past year. There is one when she is singing Happy Birthday to me. She is laughing…. Read More ›

Gifts

I’m back. It has been a month since I last posted. Between the stresses of a sick husband and the pandemic and dealing with Medicare, etc., I just never felt like writing. Or reading. In other words, I have been feeling overwhelmed. And as usual, when I feel overwhelmed, even the smallest things stress me… Read More ›

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